love stinks... for me

dearest readers,
I come to you once more, but this time, not as a whimsical person full of hilatiousness. but as a man, broken hearted, and defeated. from time to time we all have our moments of pain and suffering, but my friends, I have had enough, enough of falling for one girl after another, hoping, and quite literally praying, that she will be the one, that at least we can become friends, and more. that she will give me the chance to show her that i can make her the happiest woman on the face of the earth. but, as is custom, this cant happen. because for some reason, the name Eric Chantry is cursed, for some reason, a woman CAN NOT fall in love with Eric Chantry, whether it's my personality, or some primal womanly instinct, I don't know. but what I do know is I'm tired of it! I want a relationship to work out for once! just once, once is all I need!

so this subject would lead me to my next point, and although many of you will think I'm falling into another depression cycle, I'm not, I'm just simply stating the facts.
my point being, what is it about me that all females detest?! I try my best to be the one they al dream about, I'm kind, I care, I listen, I'm a worthy priesthood holder, I love my family, so one would say, wow, Eric, your amazing! and many have! but WHAT THE CRAP IS GOING ON?! why can I go on dates with girls, and they like me, but ONCE I try to take it to the next step, it all falls apart? ok, I will admit more often than not, I do move fast, but thats not because I want to get my giggy on, I just want to get things going, I want her to know I'm interested. but for some reason EVERY girl on the planed that I've met thinks that that means I'm ready for marriage, and they say slow down, so I step back, because the last thing I want, potential girlfriend or not, is for her to be uncomfortable.

anyways, I know this was random. but ooh well, it's my blog!
hope all is well.
much love
-Eric